This episode tackled mental illness in this genuine way. Station 19 continues to show you if you do struggle with mental health you can find this poetic way of managing your own demons you battle on a daily basis. How through fighting for you you begin to heal the wonderful person you are. Also, showing that when you have someone worth fighting for you will do what is necessary to find your way back to that person. And at the end of the day LOVE always prevails. Carina confronts her wife Maya about her mental health which causes Maya to spiral out of control. So much so where her wife has to 5150 her to get her the help she needs.
I have struggled with mental health as a child up until now as a 50 year old woman. As a child if you said you felt a certain way you were crazy so you just buried any feelings you had down way down. Then you get older and all those things you suppressed begin to resurface and manifest in ways that don't make sense. In 2017 I had a hysterectomy and was bleeding internally so I had to be ripped open again to stop the bleeding. It took me a little longer to wake up from the second surgery but I made it. Mentally no one prepared me for the PTSD the anxiety the depression that would surface. I never asked for help I just fought through it in my own way. Not sure if I'm ready to take that journey by my lonesome. There's this wall I see in front of me where if I go to walk around it on the left or right the wall just keeps going. Then I look up to go over it and it just keeps getting higher and higher. Then I look down to dig to go under it just keeps extending further and further down. The only way through that wall is to go through it. But I know if I go through it no one will be waiting on the other side to grab my hand to hold me and say I got you. Yes, I have my three boys but they don't understand what I'm going through. I've always been there strength the person they can come to the person that is both mom and dad. I need someone who understands! Someone who will listen! Someone who can relate!